Three years

Angela passed away three years ago, today. It seems like yesterday and decades ago at the same time. She was such a wonderful big sister. She always let me follow her and her friends around the house, we'd count the glow-in-the-dark stars on the ceiling in her room, and go to aerobics class out at BYU. We were both out there for my freshman year, which was such a blast. We shared a car, and got to see a lot of each other as she showed me the ropes. Angela always treated me like I was her best friend.

As I'm sitting here remembering her, I can't articulate all the ways that I remember her and miss her. Clara knows that full moons and tulips remind me of Angela, and Clara always reminds me whenever there is a full moon, "Remember who that makes you think of?" I love that Clara knows about Angela in little ways. I miss Paul, too, and am grateful that he came to Savannah's blessing, Ashley's wedding, and comes to visit when he can. He took such tender care of her, which I'll always remember.

Angela loved Ewan McGregor, Rob Thomas, Fox Mulder, Frasier, pedicures, stars, the moon, sunsets, London, and traveling. I love being reminded of her in numerous little ways everyday. I read this quote from a book I didn't like, but this stuck with me, "Everything deserves to be remembered. If I dream about them, I'm thankful afterward. Even if it hurts. Because it hurts." It's wonderful to remember, and sometimes it hurts. But I want to remember. .

Family pictures

In December we had some pictures taken of all the families...here are a couple of my favorites.

April snippets

One evening we were playing outside when Savannah went into the garage and brought out these two 'soft' boards. Clara put one on top of her, and Savannah kept nodding emphatically when we asked if she was tired.



Savannah likes to run around the house with Clara's sword saying "Aarggg!" Then she added the eye patch...outfit complete.


Look at that face! I love this little girl.


On Easter they sat on the couch and compared their spoils. Savannah got little toddler snacks and devoured them on the spot. Clara was surprised how fast she gobbled them down.

February/March

My camera has been full of pictures and I finally have gotten them off..although there aren't many and it takes along time to upload the pictures to my blog. Savannah loves to dress up in Clara's clothes, bathing suits, and dress ups. She copies Clara all the time and follows her everywhere. They are starting to play better together, except when Clara is trying to wrestle Savannah, who is trying to get away. Still, sometimes Clara thinks her little sister is out to ruin everything she owns. They're such cuties.

Jason is almost done with third year, and has decided he wants to do dermatology. He had lots of areas he was interested in, but felt like he needed to decide and move on. We've started looking at residencies all over the country, which is kind of exciting! One one year left of school!

I've been working with the young women in our ward, which has been fun. I finally feel like I'm getting the hang of things. Clara is getting excited for kindergarten, which she'll start in August! I can't believe it...and I'm trying not to think about it yet. :)